Shattered Sun

I fell in love when I first heard your voice I had done it willingly, it was my choice And when you told me you loved me, too It was like a dream come true I thought my life was so perfect Then you did something I didn’t expect You went and asked someone else out Everyone expected me to pout But I held my head up high Though inside all I did was cry Then you told me that you still loved me But your actions said differently Without you, I know I would die I needed your love, though I don’t know why Maybe because I could never hate you My love for you will last forever, too So I kept greeting you back into my life Knowing you could or would never be mine And I felt I was slowly twisting a knife Nobody knew, cause I would say I was fine Then came the ultimate act of love, can’t you see After that, I felt that you had just used me That was the deciding factor and reality kicked in I know where I am going And I am through where I’ve been

Why is it so painful This love that I have for you Such a terrible ache Yet I know it’s true A hot, searing pain Is burning at my heart The emotions threatening To tear me apart My mind is so confused To say the very least Wondering what to do With this terribly wild beast For I can’t lose you The cause of my pain Because with out you I wouldn’t be sane So if you can Answer this for me Why is it so painful This love that I see

There I see it hiding In the shadows of my heart It doesn’t come out often For it seems to like the dark There is sits whispering Little pieces of insanities And my thoughts turn to whimpering Telling of my vanity Everything is different Seen through its eyes What I see as good It’ll soon cut down to size And of my memories It’ll see the bad While I’ll see the good Still it’ll make me sad And of everything I’ll endure This is the worst of all ‘Cause with everything I’ll do It’ll try to make me fall

We broke up somehow All I know if that I’m sad now Did I do it, or was it you? We were so happy and now it’s through? Life is now full of so many choices And in my head I keep hearing voices One voice asks, “How could it happen?” Another voice is doing nothing but laughin’ I feel as if I’m in a duel And the opponent is being very cruel The opponent is the way I feel As crazy as it is, every emotion is real As I’m being forced to make a new start There is a pain deep inside my heart I can’t figure out what I must do To overcome losing you

Cool water lapping at the edges of my mind Thoughts rising and receding in perfect time Memories emerge from the black lagoon Only to disappear all too soon The water is thick with various notions And the air is electrified with emotions And even though I can’t swim The water calls me from deep within And the voice calls me, again and again Telling me to have no fear, the water’s my friend I still don’t understand, but I’m less afraid So slowly and silently into the water I wade Once I’m in the water, I can no longer fight And slowly I’m pulled under, away, and out of sight