Trish & Mick
Jason and I were shocked that your package got here so soon and it’s so awesome! You guys are amazing and wonderful! Thanks for making my day so special! (And yeah, that’s the little gift string you had sent in the box. Read on to see photos of it’s transformation, so to speak! 
And all photos in this post are clickable for a larger photo. )
A couple of days ago I was chatting with a friend and we were talking about relationships. We covered a lot of aspects, but the most interesting comment she made was this: Denise, the happiest I’ve seen you is when you’re alone. It made me think, maybe I am the happiest when I’m not in a relationship. It’s not that I don’t enjoy companionship because I do. I love having someone in my life who loves me and wants to be around me, etc, etc. But relationships really stress me out. It’s like somewhere internally I turn on the “Cop Mode” and I just can’t do anything right. And, as always, I’m way harder on myself than the other person is. It’s funny how that works. Anyway, I could have denied that statement or accepted it and I chose to accept it. It definitely applied, I just had never thought of it that way before. Interesting how friends can get you thinking when they can see the forest and all you see are trees.
Sometimes, you have to look at your behavior and realize that it might not be the healthiest in the world. I had that awakening today. I was laying in my bed, half asleep, when the phone rang. I picked it up, being that I read the caller ID and actually wanted to talk to the person on the other end. Now, mind you, this person is someone that I have been working very hard on a friendship with. I really want this person to be a part of my life. And, well, I tend to remind myself throughout our conversations that I need to have patience and that I need to remember not to be controlling. With this person I am usually not in control and that has always bothered me, so by nature, I fight to be in control. And that nearly always causes a fight. It’s like I can’t help myself and just have to argue about nothing. Most of the time, it feels like I’m doing this:
So, I was watching Top 20 Countdown on CMT and when it was over, I started watching Devoted. Have you ever seen that show? I’m not one for all these “biggest fans” type shows. It’s not that they aren’t interesting, it’s just that most of the time the fans come off as a little obsessive.
So why am I posting this? Well, today’s show had a segment about Kenny Chesney being the center point to a wedding. He was the theme. It was cool. Interesting without being overly weird. But they just had to pick the ideal song for their wedding dance, Me and You. I can’t listen to that song without thinking about a certain someone. It’s amazing how you have memory triggers and they never seem to go away. Even after years and you don’t really think about it, one thing can bring it all back. :: sigh :: (more…)
Okay, this may come across odd, then again, maybe not! 
This is a kind of list of thank yous… Some people deserve them recently!
:: My host with the most in San Francisco, ty ty! You rocked my world!
:: Carrie, you are the bestest friend in the whole wild world. Even when I piss you off! 
:: Jason/Raynos, odd sexual humor aside, you’re the funniest person I know. I’ll die in Dereth with you any day!
:: Mick/Tol & Kakadu/Alix, y’all are awesome Aussies! Someday I’ll make it out that way!
:: Tri, lurk That’s all I have to say to you! :: D, Love heals all wounds or wounds all heels, think it’s just about perspective. 
Love you always!
:: AMK, you’re the best new person I’ve had the honor to meet.