http://www.shatteredsun.net/2006/09/25/i-am-a-slacker/ Thu, 04 Dec 2008 03:53:40 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=abc http://www.shatteredsun.net/2006/09/25/i-am-a-slacker/#comment-19794 lonerlady Mon, 15 Jan 2007 15:53:35 +0000 http://www.shatteredsun.net/2006/09/25/i-am-a-slacker/#comment-19794 <p>I too am a slacker. I didn't use to be. I used to be a real "go getter". Now I have a job some would be very envious of. I make good money. Have a great title. My own office. Prestige. And......who cares? I don't. None of it means anything. I only go there because I have to pay the rent. I only pay the rent because I don't want to bother packing. I don't care because my heart has been shattered into so many tiny fragments that it will never be whole or useful again. I just wait....... The only goal I have is to get this miserable life over with. I hope that we don't remember anything from this one. I hope that my mind becomes completely empty of all knowledge of the pain I have endured. So I wait. Oh, yes, and act. I do believe that I am the world's greatest actor. No one knows how I struggle everyday just to survive through yet another endless stretch of hours. I look forward to nothing. Nothing gives me joy or peace or comfort.There is nothing for me but the lovely knowledge that no one lives forever. Someday, I will cease to wait. That day cannot come soon enough.</p> I too am a slacker. I didn’t use to be. I used to be a real “go getter”. Now I have a job some would be very envious of. I make good money. Have a great title. My own office. Prestige. And……who cares? I don’t. None of it means anything. I only go there because I have to pay the rent. I only pay the rent because I don’t want to bother packing. I don’t care because my heart has been shattered into so many tiny fragments that it will never be whole or useful again. I just wait……. The only goal I have is to get this miserable life over with. I hope that we don’t remember anything from this one. I hope that my mind becomes completely empty of all knowledge of the pain I have endured. So I wait. Oh, yes, and act. I do believe that I am the world’s greatest actor. No one knows how I struggle everyday just to survive through yet another endless stretch of hours. I look forward to nothing. Nothing gives me joy or peace or comfort.There is nothing for me but the lovely knowledge that no one lives forever. Someday, I will cease to wait.
That day cannot come soon enough.

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