Shattered Sun

I actually have stopped biting my nails. Well, mostly. I think most of my nails are looking really good. I’ve been using Nailtiques products which have done a great job of strengthening my nails. They’re no longer weak and bendy. The pics aren’t terribly beautiful, but anyone who bites their nails will appreciate them.

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I’ve always thought of having more children, but then I get selfish and decide that I really don’t want to bring back night feedings, diaper duty, and more sibling rivalry. I am only tempted every now and then, like when I see my friends having their children or people like Janise Wulf having children at 62. The other side that I grapple with is the age gap between children. I can not fathom having children who are 10 or years apart from each other. I am 10 years older than my sister and 12 years older than my youngest sister. That’s just an amazing amount of space. We have different mothers and have led very seperate lives. I don’t know them but I can’t get to know them because they are now young teenagers and have enough to worry about. I have no desire to add to those worries with being a sister they may not even know they have.

And that’s what worries me about having more children now. Sam is almost 11. Zack is just barely 7. If I were to get pregnant tomorrow, Zack would be around 8 when the baby was born. That’s just too much of a gap for me to overcome. I thought four years was perfect between children. I don’t know. Maybe I’m just over thinking this whole thing.

I’ve been looking for the following paperclip and can’t seem to find it anywhere.

I have one of these. I’d like more for some possibly beading projects. I just see so many possibilities with this! If you’ve seen this or maybe some other really nifty looking paperclips, could you help me out?

I truly am lacking it at this point in the games. I just can’t seem to get into the Olympics this year. It’s really got nothing to do with the tape delays from Torino or Michelle Kwan not participating or so many American participants having issues this time around. No, it’s really just something that isn’t catching my attention. It’s a complete competition for my time and that’s one of the items that just doesn’t make the cut. Kind of sad, isn’t it? I want to be thrilled and excited but it’s like the Super Bowl. I just can’t seem to be overly excited about it anymore.

I don’t really know what’s wrong with me but I’ve been fighting this flu or cold or just, ICK for a few weeks now. It sucks. Seems like too many people at work have been sick and then the Terrors were both sick and even Jayson (who never gets sick) was sick. He’s still a bit sick. He’s taking the wonderful Zicam products. They’re helping me, so I’m guessing they’re helping him. I’ve been previously fighting this thing off with Airborne. It helped but I’ve finally come down with whatever this thing is. I sure hope it passes quickly because I hate being ill. And really, I don’t have time to take time off from work to be ill. I hope no one else catches this thing. It sucks.