Shattered Sun

Life seems to keep trucking along and dragging me behind it tied to ropes. And just when I think it can’t go any faster, it does! I need to make a decision about whether I want to stay permanent at my job soon. I also need to decide if I want to accept salary, should that be offered and if it isn’t offered, if I should push for a guaranteed 40 hours. I could find plenty of things to do at work to get those extra 9.5 hours. As is, I rarely find a week that I don’t already go over the 30.5. But, anyway, my boss offered me a “more permanent” position and we’re going to chat about it in the AM. I guess we’ll see what happens, eh?

I really enjoy my job right now, but I figure that if it gets too boring or the pay ceases to be worth it, then I can just wait it out for a few years and find something else. Once I have a good solid background with one company, it’ll be a cakewalk to get a higher management job. I found that when I was interviewing in May, my biggest issue was the lack of traditional experience. I’m sure that others have this same problem. My friend Damon comes to mind! He has no degree in his field, but damn, he knows his stuff!

My friend that I’m sorta replacing told me that she likely won’t be coming back and that puts me in as the only chickie working this job. I love my job but I wish the company would have worked with her so that she could do it part time from home. She really could telecommute. They just don’t want to let her. I hate that. Everyone wants to stay in the paper stage and really, our main office is in Hong Kong anyhow. What’s the difference between telecommuting from the office or from the home? I think it’s a load of malarky, if you ask me. Besides that, I hate feeling like I’m taking someone’s job. Which is essentially what’s happening. It sucks. I think I’d feel more content if I didn’t like her and think of her as a friend. And if I didn’t know that she’d just had a sweet baby boy, etc, etc. Yeah, I’m feeling a bit blue about the news. I think I’m okay, but it sucks anyway.