Shattered Sun

I was reading Damon’s journal and thinking about one of his posts on needs and wants. Personally, I have found that what I want and what I need are usually not equal. I want a simple life. I need a complex one to achieve everything that I need to get done. I want to not work (ha ha) but damn, I really like having money. There is one area that has finally balanced itself between what I want and what I need. My family life. I wanted a perfect family, but now I have what I need, which is a family that loves me. I wanted a perfect husband who would be the best parts of the men I love/loved. What I have is a man who is far from perfect, but understands me, puts up with me, and loves me. While I didn’t really journal about it, there was six months last year that we were separated and our marriage almost ended. In a sense, it did. It was bbbaaaddd. But after dating some guys, I found myself comparing them to Jayson and they were coming up short. You’d think that would be enough, but it was something that Damon said to me that sealed the deal. He told me that he wanted to only get married once and that it would be forever. No multiple divorces and remarriages for him. And I realized that I wanted that, too. I always had, but I mean, he made me realize that I was giving up on the man that I said I would never give up on. We sometimes take our marriage vows too lightly in this world and I was once one of those people. I didn’t mean to be, but it happened over time. I don’t want to ever be in that place again. I never thanked Damon, but Damon, it’s because of my friendship with you and the advice you didn’t mean to give that saved my marriage. You are at the heart of the return of my happiness and contentment. Thank you honey. I’ll love you forever, but you already knew that.

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