Shattered Sun

Five Days! That must be a record for me! Lol! Life has been icky here. I’m not sleeping well since I’ve got an issue with playing nurse and sleeping. There’s just something about taking care of someone when you know that they really can’t take care of themselves, but want to. That’s Jason. If someone’s not up with him when he is, he’ll try to be the ncie guy and not wake anyone up to help him. Sure, that sounds like he’s a sweetie, but let me tell you, there are times when I wish he’d be inconsiderate about that stuff!

So, I’m keeping odd hours, I’m dead tired all the time. You know it’s bad when the terrors tell you that you look tired. They never really notice that sort of stuff. Worse is that I know I’m tired when I go to make cookies and forget to make sure I have everything before I start. So now there’s a big white bowl with a cup of butter in it, sitting in the fridge. Someone call me and remind me to buy flour tomorrow. (more…)

Is it better to take a chance that you know could turn out disastrous but likely won’t? Or is it better to go the safe route that definitely won’t lead you the way you want to go? There are choices that you are faced in life where you know the road forks and it’s your one chance to really thoughtfully choose the path you wish to travel. It takes a lot of thinking and patience to do it right. I am not a person with patience when it comes to decisions. I want to make a decision and see the effects now. But life can’t be planned that way. But I can take that chance that you think I’m crazy for doing. And I can take that path that’s got boulders in the way that I have to move. Yep, I know it’s going to be hard work but a little hard work never hurt anyone. So, for everyone who says that school isn’t a good idea, bite me. Because there will never be a good time to go to school. It’ll always be the harder path to see and follow. It’ll always mean that I have to give up something else to pursue. That’s life though. And I would rather live one lifetime where I can’t see the road before me than be doomed to having a million where the safe and easy route was all I could take.

And day, as it turns out. Today is dreary! It’s wet and rainy and if it weren’t for the palm trees, I’d swear I was in Oregon again. Actually, I would rather be in Oregon with this kind of rain because Arizonans don’t have a clue how to drive in it. I think they’ve all just get used to the sunshine and dry roads and believe that the roads respond the same all the time. Most forget that you have to hit your brakes a bit sooner than normal, etc, etc. Right now I live on a fairly busy through way and I’m not looking forward to getting Sam from school this evening. Rush hour idiots + rainy weather = accidents.

Oh, well. I have no reason to go out today, thank goodness. Well, other than getting Sam, of course. Rachel requested some design work done on her site, soooo guess what I’ll be doing today? Well, that and cleaning the house. And laundry. I need a maid! lol! Y’all have fun now, ya hear?

But I’m in the depths of working on something really important and dear to my heart. It’s a web project and I can’t tell you what it will be because, well, it’s a surprise. I can tell you that I doubt most of you will benefit from it, lol. But maybe your friends will. Or those poor souls who think they can put up with me. I’ll be popping here, but between playing nurse, mom, cook, tutor, web worker, and pet wrangler, I don’t know how much posting will get done.

I’ve always been one to talk about my dermagraphism because I’ve been dealing with it since 2000 and there just isn’t that much information out there on it. As a matter of fact, I haven’t gone searching recently but did today to see if any new information had come out and none has. There is still the exact same stuff that was out on the net four years ago! It’s sort of an information crisis. No one knows where to turn for information on how to handle it and what drugs might help. It’s the little details that are missing from the information that is available.

And there aren’t any personal sites really devoted to dermagraphism. I mean, my photos of it pop up like the 3rd entry on Google, which is just crazy. So, on Jason and Kaydee’s suggestion, I’m going to figure out hosting, buy the domain(s) and start putting up a community on the net for it. I’m going to share everything I shared in my email to Kaydee about it and add whatever else I can find. This also means that I’m going to be putting my research skills to the test and heading down to the BIG library downtown and do some heavy duty searching. I’m just tired of people not knowing anything about this skin issue. (more…)