Alone
Saturday, September 20th, 2003A couple of days ago I was chatting with a friend and we were talking about relationships. We covered a lot of aspects, but the most interesting comment she made was this: Denise, the happiest I’ve seen you is when you’re alone. It made me think, maybe I am the happiest when I’m not in a relationship. It’s not that I don’t enjoy companionship because I do. I love having someone in my life who loves me and wants to be around me, etc, etc. But relationships really stress me out. It’s like somewhere internally I turn on the “Cop Mode” and I just can’t do anything right. And, as always, I’m way harder on myself than the other person is. It’s funny how that works. Anyway, I could have denied that statement or accepted it and I chose to accept it. It definitely applied, I just had never thought of it that way before. Interesting how friends can get you thinking when they can see the forest and all you see are trees.
