Archive for August 21st, 2003

Ponytail Girlfriend

Thursday, August 21st, 2003

I find it funny what details people will remember when they’re trying to place someone in their memory. Today, my friend Kelli told me that her mother asked who I was. Kelli told her that I was the girl engaged to Damon way back when. And Kelli’s mom still didn’t place me. Then, it seemed to dawn on her and she’s like “Oh, she was Damon’s Ponytail Girlfriend!”

That’s me. The Ponytail Girlfriend. :)

Breaking The Habit

Thursday, August 21st, 2003

Sometimes, you have to look at your behavior and realize that it might not be the healthiest in the world. I had that awakening today. I was laying in my bed, half asleep, when the phone rang. I picked it up, being that I read the caller ID and actually wanted to talk to the person on the other end. Now, mind you, this person is someone that I have been working very hard on a friendship with. I really want this person to be a part of my life. And, well, I tend to remind myself throughout our conversations that I need to have patience and that I need to remember not to be controlling. With this person I am usually not in control and that has always bothered me, so by nature, I fight to be in control. And that nearly always causes a fight. It’s like I can’t help myself and just have to argue about nothing. Most of the time, it feels like I’m doing this:

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