Sometimes
Sometimes, you think you know what you want, even though you know it’s not what’s good for you. That’s my life. I know what I want. I know what I need to be happy. And some of it’s good for me. Some of it doesn’t really fit because I know that in the long run, it’s just not going to work. How’s that for irony?
So, why am I saying all that? Well, I was thinking while I was in San Francisco. A lot of reflection time, you could say. Anyway, I’ve decided that even though I shouldn’t have more children, I want more. I could adopt, but to be honest, the undoing of my sterilization is a lot less expensive and a whole lot more effective. It’s what I want. But it’s probably not the right thing to do. The history of preemies is there. I wonder if I could just have one more of my own? Maybe two if I got really lucky. 
Anyway, I don’t know why I want this. I don’t regret getting fixed. I just want more children. We shall see.
August 5th, 2003 at 9:35 pm
I don’t know the history here, nor do I want to pretend to know it all, but personally I’d rather adopt. Specially if you already have a history with preemies. There are a lot of kids out there that need a warm and loving home. If I had to do it all over again, I’d adopt. Don’t get me wrong, I love my daughter, she’s what keeps me going every day and I wouldn’t want to give her up for anything. But if I was in any way able to adopt a kid, I would.
Just my two cents.
August 5th, 2003 at 10:12 pm
I’ve been trying to conceive for three years. I think God’s trying to tell me that adoption is the best route, since there are so many kids that need loving homes (which you can obviously provide). Either way, do what you feel is right.
August 5th, 2003 at 10:23 pm
I don’t know, I’m pulled both ways…there is nothing like having your own, and seeing yourself in the baby as it grows older, nothing ever compares, heck, I’d have 12 babies if I could…but I also agree that there are lots of needy children out there who don’t know what love is, what a family is, and I’d also adopt if given the opportunity. Just follow your heart and dreams, what will be, will be. I love you girl. :kiss:
August 5th, 2003 at 11:49 pm
And that folks is all that counts. The love and support from friends. I may have just met you, but I’ll be there to support you in whatever decision you make.
August 6th, 2003 at 7:41 am
Hmmm.. tough choice. I guess you’ll have to do both (have your own AND adopt)
:sunny: