Shattered Sun

Sometimes, you think you know what you want, even though you know it’s not what’s good for you. That’s my life. I know what I want. I know what I need to be happy. And some of it’s good for me. Some of it doesn’t really fit because I know that in the long run, it’s just not going to work. How’s that for irony?

So, why am I saying all that? Well, I was thinking while I was in San Francisco. A lot of reflection time, you could say. Anyway, I’ve decided that even though I shouldn’t have more children, I want more. I could adopt, but to be honest, the undoing of my sterilization is a lot less expensive and a whole lot more effective. It’s what I want. But it’s probably not the right thing to do. The history of preemies is there. I wonder if I could just have one more of my own? Maybe two if I got really lucky. Anyway, I don’t know why I want this. I don’t regret getting fixed. I just want more children. We shall see.

Okay, this may come across odd, then again, maybe not! This is a kind of list of thank yous… Some people deserve them recently!

:: My host with the most in San Francisco, ty ty! You rocked my world! :: Carrie, you are the bestest friend in the whole wild world. Even when I piss you off! :: Jason/Raynos, odd sexual humor aside, you’re the funniest person I know. I’ll die in Dereth with you any day! :: Mick/Tol & Kakadu/Alix, y’all are awesome Aussies! Someday I’ll make it out that way! :: Tri, lurk That’s all I have to say to you! :: D, Love heals all wounds or wounds all heels, think it’s just about perspective. Love you always! :: AMK, you’re the best new person I’ve had the honor to meet.

1. Whose celebrity (famous person or persons) death really affected you? Bob Hope definitely got me going. He was the most amazing person and it’s funny, he just wanted to make it to 100. And he did! How cool is that? Anyway, no, it really got me when he died, because Bob Hope was always a constant. It seems like he would never die. I know everyone dies, but you know what I mean.

2. Reincarnation - to be? or not to be? Your thoughts on the afterworld…. I think we’re reincarnated. I never used to, but there are connections with certain people that just aren’t possible without reincarnation. I do believe in Heaven and Hell though and figure that at some point, we all go there, though I’m not sure when. And I’m not sure how many times you get reincarnated before you get there. (Okay, I know I’m contradicting, deal with it!)